Once a person has past thirty, one would assumed the person has pretty much got to where she or he wants to be - a respectful position and a successful career, a slightly more powerful buying power, influential in many aspects of life and pretty much to sum it all, she or he would have got their life figured out and most importantly in already on the road to achieve their lifelong childhood dream. That is not the case for the yours truly, for after thirty, I am yet in a long way behind in becoming, as what Jennifer Garner's 13 Going On 30 would have dreamt - thirty, flirty and thriving.
It is disappointing for me to be writing this because truthfully, it hurts when all you want to do is to be successful and help to support your family but you are stuck in a position where you just can't grow and honest to God, where I am now is far from where I actually had ever imagined I was.
Ordinarily and realistically, I assumed that by now I have a family of my own, probably right now pampering and nurturing my first-born child. On top of that, I would also be at the end of the beginning stage of starting my own business, my own brand of lifestyle goods and services that gives back. Growing up, I don't have many people I look up to especially not the ones closer to me because since young, my parents has influenced me to dream big and explore the world that is out there that could make all the difference in the world. Other than National Geographic and numerous books both fiction and non-fiction, I also admired a few people that I see on the screen and funny how those people that I look up to are young girls around the same age as me.
Many who were born in the late 80s and early 90s like me would be familiar with the likes of Lindsay Lohan, Hilary Duff, All That, Arnold and The Wildthornberries. However, one name they will definitely be familiar with is the name of Ashley and Mary-Kate Olsen - currently the most influential twins of the modern age in fashion and entrepreneurship.
Twins Ashley and Mary-Kate Olsen started their career from the hit 80s sitcom, Full House and soon enough after the show wrapped up, the girls remained busy, making a brand out of their name which, at the time, comes in a combo. From movies to sitcoms, the girls grew on the screen making it from tweens sitcoms to teenage girls sitcoms. But they didn't stop at the screen only. The twins also have their own series of books, their own dolls (yes, Barbie did have competitions) and of course, the most famous of all which is also now their current bread and butter, their own fashion line. The girls became the most richest teenagers at the time and all because with the platform that they had, despite their personal dramas, they made sure to establish their name as their brand. Ashley and Mary-Kate Olsen - does not only signified their fashion line but it is also in line with screenplays, editorials and merchandising.
And as a kid as well as teenage girl, I admired them not only because they are pretty and successful but the amount of achievement they have that makes me both envious and inspired. So back when I was still in my late Primary School and early High School, I really thought when I am older, I could achieved something similar if not as big as what the twins achieved - my own fashion line, my own serial stories printed and bind in books and that's it. I'm not that big to become an actress, so movies and television and of course my own dolls are definitely out of the order. I wouldn't say no to my own merchandising though.
Writing has always been my passion and after comes fashion followed by entrepreneurship, I guess. As much as I want to blame the others for pampering me and protecting too much, I should have known to just go forth with what I am most passionate about and not what people expects me to do. So here I am, going back to blogging seriously, hopefully, while secretly complaining about my depressing life because currently at thirty five, as hard as it is for me to say this, I am on the verge of bankruptcy - working in a position with no growth and no pay so far, hounded by more than three banking facilities and with no future plan to settle them or even plans for a brighter future. Even Rebecca Bloomwood doesn't look to bad now, huh?
I am hoping with me starting to write again, I could one day be able to gain that little inspiration to get myself out of this depressing rut that I am in and also start planning for that big childhood dream of mine - to write my own novel and to have my own fashion line. Of course, at this stage, I do not hope for my name to stand or hold a candle near the Olsens twins but just like my little girl self, I can always dream and for now that will do for me.
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